| Gabe Saporta is Srz Bznz, Yo. |
[Feb. 11th, 2008|09:09 am] |
So here's the thing. Gabe Saporta is completely out of his mind. He is cracky and jokey and hilarious and totally casual about, like, everything.
Right?
Right?
Wrong.
HE'S A POOR IMMIGRANT VEGAN GANGSTER NEW JERSEY JEW WHO'S SECRETLY INTO POLITICS AND THINKS "IT'S WARMER IN THE BASEMENT" IS POETRY.
Recipe for Gabe Saporta:
Ingredients: - South American heritage - New Jersey scene - Judaism - Fugazi - Justin Timberlake - Bikini Kill - Tequila - Cuddles - Robots - Derek Zoolander - Sweet dances moves - EMOOOOOOTION
Equipment: - Pete Wentz - Basement - Cobra
Mix Judaism, South American heritage, Jersey scene in a bowl until as smooth as a Latin boy's dance moves. Add heavy dose of Derek Zoolander and Justin Timberlake, but to balance out the flavor give it some Fugazi and Bikini Kill and EMOOOOOOTION so it's not too sugary. Let it set in a basement for a year or two. Add tequila, cuddles, robots and sweet dance moves. Feed it to Pete Wentz and let it get bit by a cobra. Enjoy!
Delicious!
I strongly believe that the only words on either Cobra record we can take seriously are "I can here to make you dance tonight," and "You only see what I let you see; nothing less, nothing more." Everything else is random made-up bullshit that he spins to entertain us. He's not actually jokey about everything; he reads books on philosophy and talks about politics to magazines. He's a vegan. He speaks Hebrew (fairly well!). He's actually really, really smart.
Here's the bio on the Midtown website. I've bolded the most important bits/my favorite bits. It starts out lulzy and more like that Gabe we know, but as he gets to the end he starts getting disturbingly sincere:
All About Gabe:
updated 5/16/03
Hi. I've never bothered to fill this out in the past. Partly because there's something weird about posting personal shit about yourself in a "profile," but mostly because I’m lazy. (Actually it's not even that. It's just that I’m neurotic, and don't want to do something unless I can be really thorough with it, so I always put it off because it seemed like a daunting task. I know, I'm crazy) Well, people complained, and others thought that the fake answers our webdudes filled in for me were real (I mean, as much as I would love to eat a restaurant called the Sex Palace, I have never been there). So here goes... I will start filling out some of this shit, and I will try to update it somewhat regularly--you know, write some crap. Oh, and if it sounds like something I say is really fucked up, I’m joking. P.S. It's 10AM now and I've been writing this since 6AM. I don't know what the hell possessed me to do this now, but I'm delirious. So any other fucked up shit I've written is not my fault either.
Birthdate 10/11/79
Birthplace
Montevideo, Uruguay. That’s in South America. That’s right, I’m an immigrant motherfuckers! I was in the poverty-ridden third world, and I’m all, “yo, I should go to America, where the streets are paved with gold, and become a rock star so I can fuck lots of girls and get free drugs!”
Favorite Food
Chick Patties (that's fake chicken, bitch)
Favorite Restaurants New York: Kate's Corner (4th Street and Avenue B) - Deep fried, unhealthy vegetarian food for punk rock kids who don't give a fuck about hippie bullshit, but don't want to eat cows. Angelica's (12th Street between 2nd and 1st Ave) - Hippie bullshit vegetarian food. As I find myself becoming more of a yuppie, I start caring more about health. This is a good place to go on a date to make it seem like you have class, but you're still "hip." Odessa (9th Street and Avenue A) - Great place to go when you're trashed at 5 AM. It's shitty and too bright, but it rules. Ask to speak to the manager.
Los Angeles: Real Food Daily (La Cienega and Beverly) - The L.A. equivalent of Angelica's (organic and macrobiotic, no sugar, etc.), but with more flavor, and more movie stars. Vegan Express (Barham and Cahuenga West) - Hands down the BEST fake meat I have ever tasted anywhere! They have some secret recipe and cook all the shit there from scratch. It's a secret little hole-in-the-wall, but it rules. I saw the singer of the Chili Peppers there once. He had a moustache and a model girlfriend. He rules. Get the pepper steak sandwich.
What I’m Listening to Now Recover - Ceci N’est Pas Recover Armor for Sleep - Dream to Make Believe Christiansen - New Demos. HA! You gotta wait for the record! Ol’ Dirty Bastard - Nigga Please! Turbonegro - Apocalypse Dudes YOU NEED TO BUY THIS ALBUM NOW! Mars Volta - Deloused in the Comatorium This shit isn’t even music anymore. It’s some fucking cosmological shit. The Sounds - Living in America Guilty pleasure. Part of me thinks they’re bullshit, but their songs are so catchy and I want to marry the singer. The Soundtrack of Our Lives - Behind The Music. Why is it that all the good shit comes from Sweden? The first time I saw these guys I had a religious experience. The second time I saw them, I hated them. Oh well. Death Cab for Cutie - You Can Play These Songs With Chords
Top 10 Albums of ALL TIME, bitch! 1.Nirvana - EVERYTHING. This is the band that got me into punk rock. They changed everything. 2.Pavement – Crooked Rain, Crooked Rain. I've listened to this record every time I have fallen in love in the past 8 years. I rip off their lyrics sometimes too. 3.Superchunk – TIE: On the Mouth and Foolish. All the bullshit "emo" bands today rip-off Superchunk without even knowing it. 4.Pixies – Doolittle The Pixies were able to make incredibly catchy music that was still really strange and different. Plus they were on the soundtrack to Pump Up The Volume. Why does Christian Slater suck now? 5.Sonic Youth – Daydream Nation This was my introduction to Sonic Youth and it totally redefined my notion of what music could be. Somehow though, I still ended up writing shitty pop-punk songs. 6.A Tribe Called Quest – The Low End Theory I’ve been listening to this album for 10 years now--since I was in sixth grade motherfucker--and it gets better as I get older. I now understand some of the "lingo" I wasn't "hip" to before. E.g., "I’ll bust a nut in your eye, to show you where I come from." And by now, I know every word to every song. Ask me to kick "Check the Rhyme," but I get to be Phife Dog. The best hip-hop album of all time. Good jams, no bling-bling fronts. 7.Fugazi – TIE: 13 Songs and Repeater It's one thing to have been at the forefront of a musical revolution once in your life. But to have done it several times, and continue to stay there is unbelievable. Ian Mackaye invented straight edge and was at the center of the hardcore movement in the early 80's with Minor Threat. Then he just dumped all that bullshit and started Fugazi. In between both that shit, he also, along with Rites of Spring, was responsible for "emo" with Embrace. Ian Mackaye doesn't fuck around. Shit. 8.Lifetime - Jersey's Best Dancer's This is the band that made me want to start Midtown. 9.Mission of Burma – Anthology Most under-rated band of all time. Moby covered one of their songs like 7 years ago when he tried to do a rock record. That just made everyone hate them more 'cause Moby’s a dildo. 10.Elvis Costello – This Year’s Model it's weird how people start to suck when they get older, but when Elvis made this album he was bad-ass. I bet he was fucking mad bitches back then.
Runner-Up: Bikini Kill - The CD Version of the First Two LPs My first punk rock record. Weird, huh? I then realized I couldn’t exactly be a riot-grrl because I wasn’t exactly a girl.
Favorite 80’s Jams 1.Blondie 2.Depeche Mode 3.U2 4.Madonna 5.The Cars
Favorite Movies I’m not gonna sit here and write comments about every movie, but I will say that “Say Anything” was the first movie I saw when I came to America, and that I’ve seen “Zoolander” 27 times. My favorite pastime is reenacting scenes from the movie, so if you see me, just quote any line from Zoolander and I’ll hit you back with the next one. My favorite scene is when Derek and Hansel aren’t each others’ “bros,” but Billy Zane’s got Derek’s back. I was a clown for Halloween, what were you?
Top 10 All Time 1.Fight Club 2.Do the Right Thing 3.Jerry McGuire 4.American Beauty 5.Say Anything 6.The Usual Suspects 7.Rain Man 8.Reservoir Dogs 9.The Graduate 10.Jacob’s Ladder
Favorite Comedies 1.Zoolander 2.Spaceballs 3.The Kentucky Fried Movie 4.Spinal Tap 5.Rushmore 6.Monty Python’s Holy Grail 7.Austin Powers 8.Brain Candy 9.Office Space 10.Happiness
Favorite TV Shows I don’t watch TV anymore, but here’s the shit I liked when I did. Actually, I hated MASH, but I loved that theme song; it was so sad. Yeah, the Taxi theme song had the same effect on me. I think it’s because when I was really little and used to get into my parents bed when I was scared of the dark and couldn’t sleep and shit, those shows would always come on late at night. I’m old school, dog.
1.The Simpsons 2.Aeon Flux 3.The Wonder Years 4.Happy Days 5.Liquid Television 6.Kids in the Hall 7.The State 8.Tenacious D 9.In Living Color 10.Ali G 11.Three’s Company 12.Diff’rent Strokes 13.Facts of Life 14.M*A*S*H 15.Yo! MTV Raps
Favorite Books On the Road by Jack Kerouac – This book changed my life. I read it when I was young (13) and had been brought up to think the only way to survive was to do well in school and get a good job. On the Road made me realize that there was a whole other world out there, and experience was what made life worth living.
Notes from the Underground by Fyodor Dostoevsky – After I realized that experience was what made life worthwhile, I realized that my life was still meaningless and nothing could ever change that. This book helped me understand how that could be.
Rethinking Life and Death by Peter Singer – Singer is a philosopher who tackles difficult questions and proposes radical answers for issues that we are not prepared to handle today. He believes that many of our current moral dilemmas are based on the fact that we do not have a clear definition of where life begins and ends. His argument is surprisingly rational and intuitive but it is radical in that it presupposes animals would have the right to life over coma patients with lower brain deterioration. Wow, I knew I learned something in school.
Interrupting for a minute: SERIOUSLY. FOR ANYONE WHO WASN'T INTO MIDTOWN, HOW FUCKING OUT OF LEFT FIELD WAS THAT? JACK KEROUAC. DOSTOEVSKY. THE WORDS "INTUITIVE" AND "PRESUPPOSES" AND "RATIONAL".
What I’m Reading Now The Inner Reaches of Outer Space by Joseph Campbell – My friend Louis bought this for me for my birthday in October. I started reading it when we were in Europe with Recover in December, but I haven’t picked it back up since I’ve been home. Oh well— I’ll finish it someday. Campbell says that all religions are interconnected and basically the same. And he argues that the reason for this is because throughout millions of years we have evolved from the same organic matter and hence share a cosmological subconscious with each other and with the energies in the universe. Hence the answers to the mysteries of the universe are located inside each one of us. Hippie bullshit.
Favorite Part of Being in a Band It’s amazing to start anything from the ground up and watch it grow every step of the way. It’s not about becoming huge, it’s about knowing that whatever you set out to accomplish, you were there at every stage and you did it with your own hands. It’s even better to get the chance to do this with your bros. I also think it’s amazing that I can have an idea in my head and eventually it will turn into a tangible piece of music. And it’s even more amazing that other people respond to it, relate to it, and appreciate it.
Me again. I love when Gabe talks about being in bands. He is so incredibley devoted to the scene- maybe even more than Pete. He's so grateful for everything that happens to him; he's written songs about it. He never fails to be amazed that he can create this stuff. He loves each and every fan individually because he knows what it feels like. God, I fucking love him.
Least Favorite Part of Being in a Band All the bullshit in the music industry. Money ruins art—always. Even if it seems like it’s but a small tarnish. Eventually every negligible compromise will chip away at another piece of what you had initially conceived until you are left with but a hollow semblance of something you once held dear. Compromise is good in co-existing peacefully with others; it is death to art.
LOVE, YOU GUYS, LOVE. HE'S SO FUCKING EMO.
What do you play? Bass guitar Voice box
Here's where we get weirdly candid.
Inspirations I’m inspired by the serious issues people need to deal with. So conversely, I am numbed and jaded by the meaninglessness and bullshit of everyday life. I want to vomit when I hear some of the nonsense people complain about. Sometimes I feel like I can’t escape an empty existence so I find myself escaping in other ways: girls I don’t give a fuck about and don’t give a fuck about me, alcohol, whatever. . . So I am drawn to people who have real problems to deal with; problems that destroy their worlds and force them to rebuild their lives with the shattered remnants. I know that that’s kind of sadistic of me, but it feels real. It’s hard though to get close to someone like that because it requires a huge emotional commitment from me, and I’m already spread so thin . . . But it’s the only thing that makes me feel anything anymore. I don’t know why I am writing all this stuff—it’s kind of fucked up.
People You Admire As I get older and become more independent, I’ve grown to really respect my father. He was a doctor in Uruguay, but he saw that the country was going down the tubes and decided to come to America so that his children could have the chance at a better life. For over three years, we were here illegally, without a visa or a green card, so he couldn’t get a job or go to school. To make money, he sold scarves on the street. Finally when we got residency permits, he had to go back to school for 6 years (just because you’re a doctor in some bullshit third-world country, doesn’t mean you get to practice medicine here). And so I didn’t really see him until I was 11, when he finally opened up his practice. Then by the time I was 15, my parents got divorced. By the time I was 20 and the divorce was finally over, my father was left with nothing. But he just picked himself back up and started over again. The most important thing that he taught me (and really more by example than by explanation) is the value of integrity. No matter where you are in life, if you stick to your morals, work hard, and you’re an honest person, you will end up ok. Again, it’s kind of weird that I’m writing all of this, but whatever… Yeah, my dad’s a motherfucker. I also dig that Michael Moore guy—he fucks shit up!
People You Hate I’ve been fucked pretty hard throughout my few years by several different people, but I don’t really hate any of them. I don’t waste time thinking about them; they’re just cut from my life. But I find that as a result, I’ve become angrier and more jaded. And I have less room for love in my heart now because it’s filled with so much frustration and distrust. So while I don’t really hate anyone, I kind of hate everyone. Shit—that’s fucked up.
Fears I’m scared that I will undoubtedly fuck up anything that is good in my life. I’ll fuck it up partly because I am never satisfied and nothing is ever good enough for me, and partly, or rather: I’m never satisfied because I am so scared of getting fucked and not having control over getting fucked, that I would rather fuck it up myself. I’d rather ruin something myself, than take the chance of losing control over it. Although I am scared that this is true, I am not entirely convinced that I will always act this way. I think I have a strong tendency for this behavior, but so long as I am aware of it, I can at least diffuse it a little. Can’t I? Moreover, as a consequence of the above, I am scared that I will never be happy in a relationship. I’m also scared that my lifestyle is preventing me from having a shot at a normal relationship (which requires spending time together) and by the time I slow down, everyone will already be married, and I will only have the hordes of the lost to choose from.
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From here. 2002.
"I think it's important not necessarily for a band to be political in terms of like to preach, but I think it's important especially for bands that come from the scene to really have ideas and views and develop something more meaningful and deep. Whether it's about the world or about people or about whatever people want to have ideas about. But, definitely to be somewhat focused in something other than just rocking out and having a good time because having a good time is awesome, but I think what has made like the punk, social punk, whatever you want to call it, underground movement, survive is the fact that underneath the fun is a strong foundation of ideas and there's a movement. It's not just punk music, but the punk movement. I don't think that punk necessarily characterizes a type of music. Some people say punk is like Mohawk punks and some people say punk is Sum 41. I think punk really characterizes a type of culture. That culture is, I think of music being intertwined with ideas and spreading a message and having ideas really deviate from what you see in the mainstream. I think that what's most important is not necessarily to deviate, but to deviate in a way to give you a sense of realness. Because I think in the mainstream everything is packaged in a way to try and make you live vicariously through what you see. You see rappers and Kid Rock living these lavish lifestyles and stuff and that's not real. There is nothing real about that. There's nothing you're going to relate to. The only thing you are going to relate to is you're going to be like 'Oh wow.' You're going to be wishing you were that person. But, I think the thing about punk music is that you realize that it's a person just like you, doing something that's real and there's a connection to the music that you can do it and it should inspire you in that way. So, I think that's what is important, for people to continue that tradition."
In which he compares non-vegetarians to both slave owners and cannibals (but, you know, not in a mean way or anything):
"I just became a vegetarian when I was thirteen. I was away at summer camp and this hippie dude, I'm totally not a hippie at all you know, was just like 'Listen we're a civilized society. There's so many alternatives. There's no reason to make an animal suffer.' I've always like been compassionate for all living things and that just made so much sense to me. It was almost like I was in the dark for my whole life and I wanted to turn on a light. I was thirteen and I realized that and just abruptly I changed it and said 'Okay, I'm becoming vegetarian.' The thing is that it was so abrupt for me; it wasn't a gradual change. It was so abrupt that I remember I was eating food at a bar mitzvah and my friend was like, 'Aren't you a vegetarian now?' I'm like, 'Oh my God, I forgot.' And I totally honestly forgotten that I had chosen to become a vegetarian just because I had been doing it for so long, eating meat for so long, it just like left my mind. But, since then I haven't eaten any meat. I think like it's just one of those things, you know for everything I believe that there's a universal moral truth; there's a right and wrong in everything and for everything I do I need to find a reason for it. There needs to be a reason behind everything I do and the reasons they come from I don't want to be a hypocrite; I want to be consistent with my ideas. I can't find any reason honestly that would allow me to eat meat that would also allow me to eat people. And it's like those are the kinds of things I just consider morally wrong. And it's not like I'm not making a moral judgment saying that if you eat meat you're an ass or whatever. I think that it's the same thing with slavery. I mean it took thousands of years for people to realize that slavery was wrong. They used to say the same things about slaves that they say about animals now. You know, 'Oh well they don't have feelings. They're lower beings than us because they don't have thinking capabilities.' And it's like they would de-humanize these people. Whoever they wanted as slaves because it worked toward their benefit because it's easier and it made their life easier. And obviously eating meat is easier. It tastes better. I'm not denying that it tastes good. I'm Hispanic. I grew up eating meat three times a day and I love the taste of meat. No doubt about it, but I'm sure I'd love to see the look in someone's eye when I stab them to death, you know. But, I think that what's right and wrong I have to follow first."
(For more on veganism, please see Midtown on PETATV. He talks about how during the Holocaust, Nazis made Jews into lampshades and soap, and we do the same thing to animals and no-one thinks about it as bad. To be honest, though, I think he's going a little far when he discusses the "animal Holocaust", but I think it's awesome that he's into "conscienciousness" and stuff. Intelligent and adorable. He's amazing.
Also, see Gabe Saporta interviewing Andy Hurley for PETA2. He repeats the 'how I became abruptly vegeterian' story with added lunacy. This is CS-era Gabe, so expect crack. "What animal do you most relate to? I'm, like, a monkey, because I'm like goofy and like have lanky legs and stuff, and I'm, like, loud, and I laugh, like, like, AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA and stuff, yeah.")
This is really interesting, this next bit. He doesn't just talk this way; he honestly doesn't care how you get his music, so long as you get it and love it. He doesn't care!
"We have a new album. It's called Living Well Is The Best Revenge. It's kind of good. It's pretty good. You should get it or borrow it from someone and keep it or burn it."
This is 2002, remember. Before Limewire and Oink and shit. When we saw Cobra play in Montreal, he said "I don't even know if our album was released in Canada or whatever, but no-body seemed to buy it or whatever. But you're all here, and you're singing along, so I don't care how you got it!" or something along those lines. Point is. He actually means it. If you're happy, he's happy.
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From here.
More on downloading music:
"Basically the best thing about it is going on tour and having kids that have never heard your music before there to see you. Say we went on a European tour and no one had heard our music, they could easily get it from Napster. I think that Napster or just Mp3's in general give every band the opportunity to get their music heard by anybody in the world. The only people that are complaining about Napster are the ones that are super big bands that are millionaires anyways, so it doesn't make any sense for them to have any say when in fact there is in fact that Napster might be helping their band by getting their music out. Too many times people have come up to me, and it's a good thing, that have said that I heard your music off Napster and I want to buy your CD. It's great."
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Okay, this has nothing to do with Gabe, I just found this and want to show you all. It's from an interview with Rob (from Midtown).
AP.net: Well, that’s about all I have for you guys, I want to thank you again for taking the time out to do this and on that note, do you have any last words for the readers at Absolutepunk.net?
Rob: A.) sweet little dudes B.) b.) www.i-surrender.com (that’s my label C.) mikeyway.com (the url will be a bit different because some douchebag took took the domain already.
I LOVE THIS SCENE. I HAVE NEVER WISHED I WAS FROM NEW JERSEY BEFORE, HOLY SHIT. I HAVE ALSO NEVER WISHED I WAS A VEGAN.
iamsupernova IS LAUGHING AT ME BECAUSE I MAKE FUN OF HER FOR BEING A LESBIAN VEGAN. ARIELLE, DARLING, AT LEAST I DON'T WANT TO BONE LYN-Z AS BAD AS YOU DO.
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So Gabe has always been very vocal about how much he loves the Jersey scene. He was in a committed relationship with it (wait till you see how he used to talk about it!) but then he kind of accidentally fell in love with FBR and, well, he and the Jersey scene stayed good friends and stuff, and it's not bitter or anything. He just moved on. It happens. He still sometimes reads old love letter to it and feels kind of nostalgic and wistful, but it all turned out for the best in the end.
Here is a love letter to the Jersey scene. It is a song called "In the Songs" by Midtown, of Living Well Is The Best Revenge. I uploaded it here, and I don't feel bad about uploading it for you guys because Gabe doesn't care. He'd probably be happy that I'm getting CS fans into Midtown.
The lyrics:
Remember just two years ago When our bands were playing house shows Were fighting for To make a change To live our lives the way we dreamed Despite what they might say
Remember how we struggled though Remember nights we spent on hard wood floors Were fighting for To make a change To live our lives the way we dreamed Despite what they might say
You're there when I fall You'd help me be strong Even when I lost my faith We're standing so tall We made it through it all We will keep it going strong Cause I feel it in the songs
To all my friends from around the way Much respect We owe you dues We've got your back You've got our's too We'll be there Should you fall And I just wanted you to know You can always count on me
You're there when I fall You'd help me be strong Even when I lost my faith We're standing so tall We made it through it all We will keep it going strong Cause I feel it in the songs
You're there when I fall You'd help me be strong You're there when I fall When we made it through it all
You're there when I fall You'd help me be strong Even when I lost my faith We're standing so tall We made it through it all We will keep it going strong Cause I feel it in the songs
In the songs
TELL ME THAT'S NOT A LOVE SONG. JESUS CHRIST. IT'S SO ROMANTIC. "We're standing so tall! We made it through it all!" They're Romeo and Juliet! Oh my GOD!
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Also, from here again.
MH: Having such a fast start playing your first show in '99 in front of 40 people to the summer of 2001 playing with Blink 182 to 15,000 people, how did that affect you guys as a band and did you ever think you would be here today?
GS: No. I never fathomed we would be where we are and if I had we would have been smarter. We made some stupid decisions early on because we didn't plan for this to be a career. We just wanted to do it for fun as a hobby. So, definitely I had no idea I was going to get this far and it's beyond my wildest dreams which is good. I mean there is definitely goods and bads that come along with that. I think we got this far because we really worked very, very hard. I always say that if you just put your mind to something and if you are really passionate about something you can accomplish anything. We love our band and we loved what we were doing and we gave up everything for it. We dropped out of school. We all lived in a house together. We gave up our house. We moved in with our parents. I don't have a car. I don't have anything. I just have my band. So, we put everything into this band to tour full time. We started touring. I remember our first tour we couldn't afford to stay in hotels and we usually stayed in people's houses. During the shows we would announce 'Hey, I don't have a place to stay tonight.' We met some really cool people that way and had some good times. Sometimes we would roll into a town early in the morning and not know anyone there. One time in Gainesville we just pulled into town and we parked into the parking lot of a hotel and it was 3 in the morning. By 6 in the morning it was so hot. It was like middle of summer. The van was just like an oven, so we got out of the van all sweaty and stuff and walked into the pool of the hotel and pretended like we were guests there and stuff. So, that was our shower for the week. So, I mean from there to where we are now, like on a bus in less than two years, it's just because obviously one part of me... I'm not negating. I'm not saying we don't have talent. I meant I think we are pretty good. I mean we definitely have to be at least ok as a band. I'm not saying we are the best band or anything. You just have to work really hard and make it your first priority and you can do it. You can accomplish anything.
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Pete on Gabe's love for the scene and FBR:
"wow seeing the cobra video all over trl and mtv makes my mind spin. i remember talking with gabe years ago, the friendship we forged, and how much he really believes in this. thats why i support this and him and always will. because its silly, but its real."
<333333 BFFSHIP. YOU GUYS, THE ONLY SHIP I SHIP HARDER THAT GABE/PETE IS GABE/SCENE.
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BUT. Gabe broke up with the Jersey scene and left it for FBR. He was kind of cheating on it by the end, anyway. But he felt terrible about it- Gabe knows cheating is wrong. He's into honesty. So he came clean in an apology-that-is-not-an-apology called Being From Jersey Means Never Having To Say You're Sorry, which pretty much no-one pays attention to. It might be the most important song Cobra's written. It's a break-up letter to the Jersey emo-punk underground, including an explanation that "it's time" and also an attempt at explaining to Midtown fans why he's moving on- He's terrified that he's moving away from something that's been so good to him, and he's explaining on the first song on the first record that he knows Cobra Starship is utterly silly- but it's the path he's chosen. He's "dumbing [him]self down and he can tell that he's giving up his integrity- he sounds like he's "dying".
Lyrics:
Success has its price And can you hear me now That I'm dumbing myself down? Is it filling you with doubt That I am who you thought?
I know it's just a game But I'm playing it to win I won't forget from where I came But it's time to take over Oh yeah
And can you hear me now Someone save me from the sound Of my own voice Can't you tell That I sound like I'm dying? Oh yeah
I'm tired of waiting Yeah, I'm tired of waiting I'm tired of being The poor, cliche, misunderstood
Tired of waiting Yeah, I'm tired of waiting It's time to get faded Because I can't think anymore
MY HEART. IT IS BROKEN. GABIKINS, AS A MIDTOWN FAN, I FORGIVE YOU. I RESPECT YOUR RIGHT TO ACT LIKE A TOOL. I LOVE YOU FOR BEING HONEST, AND I ACCEPT YOUR APOLOGY.
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So here's the thing. As Gabe grew up a bit, and his band got more famous and he got more famous, he never ceased to be amazed that he had fans at all. He was used to small, intimate shows where he knew everyone (including Mikeyway and Beckett- hooray!) and all of the sudden they're in strange cities singing to strange kids. It's crazy, right? And in the back of his head, as they grow and sort of lose their underground cred, there's a voice in the back of his head going "selloutselloutsellout" even though he wasn't changing to suit anyone. And he worked goddamned hard for what he has, and he's devoted to the music and to the fans and to the scene, and he's finally, you know, being recognized for the art he's created and there are "fans" that still having the fucking balls to say they thing Cobra Starship isselling out because they're on MTV now.
I give up on being reasonable with these people. He. Worked. Hard. He gave up everything. He spent his whole life being "poor, cliched and misunderstood" and you have the fucking chutzpah to say that when people besides you appreciate his work, he's a sell out? You're a fucking idiot. He sweated blood for what he has. It didn't come easy. And the fact that he has to write a song stating that he "wont forget from where [he] came," just shows that there are people in hsi old scene who will critisize him, and who will give him a hard time. He knows. I'm sure some part of him thinks he shouldn't have it just because he will lose cred. But you know that? He earned it. And he didn't change only to make money. You should be fucking happy that they're successful and being rewarded for all those hours spent outside meeting every single fan and for responding to e-mails in Myspace bulletins and for writing love songs to the scene. And how dare any one of you disrespect him and say that he did something that he obviously loves only for money.
I'm pretty sure that the reason he had to respond to those concerns wasn't because he was worried about anyone would think of the band- it's because success is something he has to grapple and struggle with, something that he feels guilty about, even, in the back of his mind, and along come these "fans" who he loves so much pointing and accusing him of something he's worked hard to avoid. It hit him where it hurt. That's why he fucking wrote that message.
So fuck you, doubters.
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K that's all for now. Maybe updated as I find more reasons to love him.
Also, I say this everyday:
Interviewer: Is there anything other than music you would like to do?
Gabe: I wanna have babies. I wanna have lots and lots of babies.
And!
Living Well Is The Best Revenge (full album) - Midtown
I AM IN LOVE.
Anyway, yeah, Gabe is srz bznz and you should all know it. |
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